HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEO YOUNGSAENG <3

Aw our little otter is getting so old (27 OMG) I don’t even know what to write right now. It’s the second year i wish you a happy birthday already. I still exactly remember how i was, where i was, what i did for you last year. Time flies so fast ;; Everything goes so fast it’s scary. I hope you’ll have a great day with people you love. I hope you’ll enjoy it as much as possible. I wish you to be happy forever saengie! :’) Thank you again and over again for everything. You’re the best singer to me, with the best voice and aw you’re so cute. Please don’t ever change, Triple S love you as you are.

I love you <3

HAPPY 7TH ANNIVERSARY, SS501!

Wow..Time flies so fast. I’ll try writing a letter without crying. There are so many things to say. So many things people already know but also so many things nobody knows but just impossible to write it because i can just share them through feelings. So many things are passing through my head right now, i don’t even know where to start actually. Let’s just start.

SS501. Five Forever as One. Super Star Five O One. Double S Oh Gong Il. To me, nothing or no one can beat you. No one. You’re just the best. The best group i’ve ever seen, the best group i’ve ever loved, the best group ever. I won’t say you guys are perfection because you’re more than simple “perfection”. But there’s just no word to describe it. There’s no word to describe how much I love you. How much you guys mean to me. How much you guys..are just my everything.

You’ve changed my life. Definitely. I don’t really know what, but I think i’ve learnt many things thanks to you. Since I know you, I have this feeling I actually have a heart. I have this feeling I can actually love without being scared of showing it off. I’ve learnt to be a part of a community called fandom. I’ve learnt to be a part of another family who’s now a big part in my life. I’ve learnt to wait as long as I could, which means forever if I have to. I’ve learnt to enjoy and have a more beautiful life with 5 amazing men I won’t ever forget. I’ve just learnt how to live in a green world. A world filled with green peas. With a body filled with Pearl light green blood. Green overload. SS501 everywhere. And nothing hurts.

I’ll always put this date in any letter i’ll write or have already written: December 22nd, 2010. The day i’ve officially discovered kpop and especially SS501 through Boys Over Flowers. I still regret I didn’t find you earlier. I was 10 when you guys debuted. Now I’m 17. I haven’t grown up with you, and I wish I have. I wish I’ve had the transition between my childhood and adolescence by your side. But whatever. It’s not too late now. I still can grow up with you guys. Going through my adolescence to my majority with you. I just want to spend all my life by your side. All my life supporting you. All my life loving you. With all my heart, all my strength and all my love I have for each of you. 

I remember my first tears were for Forever. I was watching a fanvid and it was the background music. It was the first time I listened to this wonderful song, who’s now my favorite ever. It was my first tears for a group. My first tears for you, SS501. But not the last. I have actually never cried for any other groups than you. And I think it won’t ever happen. You guys are just so special and precious to me. I’ve never seen a group that amazing. I’ve never seen a group who cares that much about their fans. I’ve never seen a group who cares that much about their members. I’ve never seen a group than humble, polite, respectful, talented, hard-working, all at the same time. It just makes me admire you even more. It makes me know I can do anything for you. It makes me know how much I love you. How big you are in my life.

Kim Hyunjoong. You’re my first korean bias ever. I discovered you as Yoon Jihoo. Like many other fans, I fell in love with your character and you, obviously. It made me look for informations about you, as a stalker. That’s how I discovered your group. That’s how everything began. I can’t handle your 4D-ness. I can’t handle your handsomeness. I can’t handle your humor. That’s just too much sometimes. You’re just the best leader i’ve ever seen. You never show your feelings. You never show your tears. You never show your stress. As a leader, you always stay strong. You always show the right way. You always protect your members, but also your fans. You stay humble despite your huge popularity. You’re just amazing. I kinda miss your hilarious 4D side you used to have in shows or just with your members. I miss your sincere and beautiful smile you used to have when having fun with your members. I just miss it. Some people can’t see the difference between your smiles, but I do. I can’t explain how but I do. I can’t blame you, though. I don’t. Sometimes it just makes me feel nostalgic. But whatever. Joongie, I just wanted to say that you’re amazing. Just stay as strong, as funny and as beautiful. Thank you for all those moments of laughter and happiness you gave me. Thank you for taking care of your members for all those years. Thank you for everything, Hyung Joong. I love you ♥

Heo Young Saeng. Your voice. Your eyes. Your smile. Your dimples. Your hair. Your hands. Everything. Your voice takes me high to heaven, i can’t even describe my feelings when I hear you singing ballads. It fits you so well… I love your mysterious and shy side. You’re definitely our little prince. Like Hyun Joong, you usually don’t show your feelings. But we all know how you really feel towards others. You usually don’t say anything. But we all know your behavior when you’re with your boys. Triple S all know how funny you can be, how kyute you are, how careful you are. You can tell us you’re a bad boy as many times as you want, it won’t change anything. You’re our Saengie, our otter, our kyute, shy, romantic and mysterious prince. You can sing as many electro songs as you want, it won’t change the fact ballads suit you the most. You also don’t cry often. But like Hyun Joong, when you cry…It means that’s just too much for you. And you can’t handle it. Like the time you wanted to adopt this little boy. It broke my heart hearing you crying. It broke my heart. You’re strong, Saengie. But at this moment we saw how fragile you could be. Your heart is big. Show everyone who you really are. Show them how funny you actually are, how amazing you are, how talented you are. You deserve much more love, I’m sure. Thank you for those moments you trolled on your members. I miss them. I miss those moments you used to forget your shy/mysterious side and just enjoy your life as if nobody was there. As if you were all alone with your brothers. I just hope you’ll win with ‘Crying’. I’m so proud of you. Thank you for everything, Saengie. I love you ♥

Kim Kyu Jong. The one I consider as my brother. The one I consider as a model. The one I consider as the most wonderful guy i’ve ever seen. What to say about you, now? I have so many questions about you. I don’t even know what to say now… It’s crazy how much I care about you, how much I want to protect you from hate and stupid people… I still don’t understand why you got criticism. I don’t understand why people bash on you. Can’t they see how amazing, wonderful and talented you are? Can’t they see your hard work? You’ve had so many hard times to be where you are now. You’re so careful towards your family, your members, but also to us. Especially to us. You’re always the one who tell us to trust in SS501. You’re always the one who tweets SS501 related stuff. We just have to look at your dp, it says it all. You’re the one who’s always there for us. Always. You’re the one who protects us the most. I’ve never seen a guy as sweet and adorable as you. You’re so underrated sometimes it makes me feel so sad people can’t see how amazing your are. They just can’t see it, and that’s just stupid. You’re wonderful. And even more than that. I wish people could see it. But at least, I do. I regret nothing. Don’t be sad, please. You still have your family. Your members. You still have us. We’ll always be with our Kyu Jongie. Don’t ever forget it. I’ll miss you so much…Two years…That’s just too long. Way too long. The waiting will be even more painful. I actually just can’t handle it and I’m trying to get used of it but…That’s hard. But if it’s your choice, I just have to respect it. Don’t forget us, Kyu. Don’t forget your roots and your path. I’m sure you won’t. Thank you for caring about everyone. Your heart is so huge and pure. Thank you for giving us joy but also tears… Thank you for sharing wonderful moments with us, at your fanmeetings or just on twitter. Thank you for not giving up. Thank you for your hard work. Thank you for being yourself. Thank you for everything. My dear brother, My Kyu Kyu… I love you ♥

Park Jung Min. Aaah. I should just post the link to your birthday’s letter and i’ll be done with your part. People would think I just repeat repeat repeat. But yeah..No. Look, i’m speechless now. My love for you is still huge. As huge as before. Even though I admit I haven’t showed it lately, it doesn’t mean I don’t love you anymore. No. Just no. Even though people should think I just bully you…That’s not true. I’m actually so worried about you. About your lawsuit against CNR, about where you are, about stuff you’re doing. I actually don’t know anything about you…. But ..yeah..anyway.
%y husband. You’re my husband. You’re my everything. You’ve become my everything. Your personality caught me. You’re so babo, crazy, hilarious. Just…When I see you, I just see myself in a guy version. That’s probably why I directly loved you. Of course, your look caught me first in “A Song Calling for You” MV. Then it was your beautiful wonderful deep voice. damn. That’s just…I can’t describe my feels now. There are too many. I can’t stop thinking about you. I swear, that’s just…really weird. I’ve never felt like this for anyone and I’ve never thought I’d feel like this. But yeah. I’m used to it now. What to say? I don’t know. Everything has been said many times, actually. I just wanted to say that you’re my perfect husband. Even though you seem crazy, I know you actually care about others, especially about your members. You can be serious. You work so hard, sometimes it just worries me a lot. But I know that’s just a part of yourself. So I don’t mind. But please…Just have some rest. And give me some news. I miss you so much, to be honest. I miss you a lot. So bad. And I really don’t know what to write right now so yeah…I’ll just say… Thank you for all those hilarious moments you gave us. Thank you for those sexy moments as well! You’re perfectly not perfect. You’re mine. I love you the way you are. I just…it’s just..Love like this. My husband, my jungbabo, jungidiot, my babo horse, my DJ Park, my big carrot…I love you. I love you so fucking much. I love you. ♥

Kim Hyung Jun. I still can’t believe I used to dislike you. It’s just unbelievable. Yeah. Let’s add this fact to the list of things I regret so bad. Anyway. This fact isn’t true anymore. Even though you act like a strong and manly man now, we all know you’re still our baby maknae. Just see how you are when you meet your hyungs. I remember all those crazy and funny moments you used to have with them. You’re just their baby. Crying, trolling around, bullying others (especially Jung Min)… You’re the one who’d got the most experience. Like Jung Min, even though you troll a lot, you can be serious a well, whether  in your work or with your family or brothers. You cry so easily, it shows how emotional you can be. Every time your group win. You just have to find arms or shoulders where you can cry. You’re so precious… You have so many sides, though. The childish baby one. The manly sexy man one. The serious one. The bad one. I love them all. I wish you could be better promoted by your company. I wish I loved you earlier. Why did I take so much time to love you? I don’t understand what was wrong with me. Thank you for those funny moments. Thank you for those trolling moments. I’m so proud of what you’ve become. You’ve grown up so fast. You’re now a man. You’re not really a baby anymore. But you’re still OUR baby. Our baby Jun. Junnie. Our baby maknae. Stay amazing. Just be yourself. I’m happy to see you enjoy what you’re doing now. You’re so talented in acting, that’s crazy. Seeing you enjoying it just makes me feel happier. Baby, I love you ♥

I still regret I haven’t known them earlier. That’s one of my biggest regrets. Better late than never. But still… I should have discovered them even before their contracts with DSP ended. Anyway..
To be quite honest, SS501 is an underrated group. I just feel it like so. But whatever. They’ll forever be the one to me. No matter how many groups are coming up in the future. No matter how many years i’ll have to wait. No matter how many times I have to say they’re not disbanded. They’re just the best to me. And they will forever be. No one can change that.

SS501 has changed my life in many ways. I’m thankful to them. I’m thankful to all the things they gave me, even though they don’t even know my existence. But they know OUR existence. They know Triple S. They care and love Triple S. We’re connected. S.T.01. Because Triple S and SS501 are Forever united as One too. Don’t ever forget.

I still have many many things in mind. I won’t ever be able to put them all in a letter. Whatever. I just wanted to write something for their 7th Anniversary.

SS501, my loves, my everything,
I love you. And I’ll love you forever ♥ 

CRYING

(spot the two gorillas)

CRYING

#1 INFINITE
#2 SAENGIE
#3 B1A4

ON MNET. MY FAVORITE GROUPS ;A; WTH. FOREVER VOTING FOR SAENGIE FIRST, THO. BUT I’LL BE HAPPY IF ANY OF THEM WON, ANYWAY ;w; I’M PROUD. OMG. PROUD OF ALL OF THEM. 

Crying

Having shown off a cool and chic masculine image with his first mini album [Let It Go], Heo Young Saeng is back in a year to the K-pop scene as a guy helpless before love, crying and hurting from a breakup. 

Consisting of 5 tracks, the title song “Crying” of [SOLO] was composed by Steven Lee — who wrote “Love like this” and “Love Ya” for SS501 and also worked with Heo Young Saeng for his first solo album with the songs “Out the Club” and “Rainy Heart” — and the lyrics written by Heo Young Saeng himself. The words “You remain in my heart… I’m still waiting for just you right here where I met you” refer to the deep feelings of a man left alone, waiting for his love to come back to him. As a medium pop R&B, the danceable R&B beats and urban melody harmonize with Heo Young Saeng’s voice to give out a unique charm. As the first medium R&B genre since his solo debut, the song raises high hopes for Heo Young Saeng’s musical career as an artist.

“Crying” was composed by Steven Lee and written by Heo Young Saeng himself.

no wonder why this song is perfect and 501% SS501-ish.

2012.05.22

C R Y I N G

CRYING

BECAUSE IT’S RELEVANT.
CRYING BECAUSE OF CRYING. 

DAMN IT.
I’M CRYING. 

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